deleting

this blog. im sick of it already.

and i am sick of myspace, facebook, and twitter.

im ready to delete it all & just not worry about internet anymore.

blah.

summer plans

possible summer options:

• 4-6 weeks in salamanca spain studying spanish
• 4-12 weeks in thailand
• 4 weeks in india

or a combination of 2 or all 3 if i am lucky.

spain is very expensive, for 4 weeks at the university & accommodations i am looking at $1500 (not including food), flights round trip are about $1400. thailand would be very very cheap, $900 roundtrip, and less than $150 for up to 12 weeks accommodations, india is about the same. it is about $150 to fly from thailand to india, but about $450 to fly from either of those to spain. hmm.. i need to get a second job so i can accomplish all of this.

my goal date for leaving is: friday, may 14th, 2010.

time to save save save.

please grow quicker

i want long hair.

really really long hair.

patience is the only thing i can do.

exercise

i could exercise from morning till night if i had the time,

i love the endorphins i get,

i love to sweat,

i love not feeling guilty about eating.

i love my dance class (zumba), and spin class, ohh and yoga class. my 3 favorites at the moment, and i have gotten my mile times down over the past week in my runs. hopefully at this rate i will be ready for the march 28th triathlon that i am hoping to do this year. =)

end of the week sweet tooth

saturday evening

next 6 month wishlist

-pay off credit card (asap)

-pay off laptop bill (by may 1st)

-mexico (the month of march)

-costa rica (summer)

-tattoo (before summer)

-get car fixed (before summer)

-get accepted into grad school (asap)

-lose 17 pounds & 3% body fat (before summer)

2010 destinations

i am really looking forward to spending a month in mexico this spring, and then a month in costa rica this summer!! 46 days till mexico!! stoked. stoked. stoked.

blah

today was very blah, somedays i get very frustrated with myself--just the way i am and the decisions i make. most of my decisions i regret instantly, and dwell on them for a while. i cant take things back but sometimes i wish i could. i really just need to change my ways. be more honest with myself and others. if i did that then i wouldnt regret anything. its a new year so here is my chance to have a fresh start. i cant wait to get away and go to mexico in a couple weeks. i need the peace and quiet, i plan on spending the entire month of march not speaking to the outside world or putting anything toxic into my body. it will be a time of spiritual growth. i need that. the countdown begins: 47 days

somedays...

i spend all day dreaming of my wedding day with him.

i usually am against the system, but sometimes i can be extra girlie & have my moments.

last minute decision

i usually never wait till the last minute for anything. i usually have things done way before deadline, but i just decided i wanted to apply to CSULB for grad school so now its a rush since the deadline is January 30th, ahhh.

a new year, a new me

its so strange to me that it is 2010. at one point during 2009 i remember wishing 2009 would just be over, but i think that was only because i was so excited all year about my peru trip and i just wanted to be there. looking back on the year all i can do is smile. 2009 was absolutely perfect in every way. i stayed completely stress free all year and just enjoyed my surroundings. i was able to travel to chicago more than once, new orleans, memphis, all multiple times. i also got to go up to portland, seattle, oahu, and down to destin, florida. i also got to spend 2 months in peru! life was really really good for me. although i have enjoyed all the traveling i do miss family and friends in california. i had many days during 2009 that i just wanted to get in my car and drive home. i learned a lot about myself this year and i do think 2010 is going to be just as amazing. i already started the year off in california with all my family and friends. and im getting ready to book my next trip to mexico, and i am filing out applications to grad school. still not really sure where i want to go but i will figure it out soon enough. no stress. this year i really want to spend less money on new shit, and eating out and partying. i want to save money for trips & i want to work out more and treat my body better. 2009 was pretty spontaneous, so 2010 should be just as exciting!! im looking forward to another great year.

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first blog of 2010.

california was amazing.

i will write more in the morning.

im a sleepyhead right now.

goodnight world.