fuck you economic crisis

i dont know how much longer i can take this economic crisis. yes, i have a job. & yes, i have a roof over my head, and i eat dinner every night, but geeez i had to move a million miles away from my comfort zone to have all these things. i miss marcel and i really wish i could just move back to long beach and get a job, find an apartment, and start grad school, but the chances of all that happening right now are: slim to none. so basically i am just going to have to stay away for a couple more years till things clear up. and i am actually getting quite bored of mississippi; dont get me wrong, i am happy here, but bored. i am ready to start something new, start grad school, start a new adventure. so my choices are: move out of mississippi, anywhere but california. hmm, so basically my two choices are either oregon or illinois. i really need to make a decision soon. 

OREGON:

[PROS]

-friends in eugene

-vegan lifestyle

-hippie culture

-cheap rent

-bike friendly

-mellow

[CONS]:

-both universities are VERY expensive

ILLINOIS:

[PROS]

-friends in chicago

-very artistic community

-lots of public transportation

-cheap rent

-good universities

[CONS]:

-very very COLD winters

i really wish someone could just make the decision for me. 

it would make things a lot easier.