i n t e n t i o n s. [next 5 weeks]

I utterly lost myself this summer; fortunately, it was only for a short duration of time. I desperately needed an escape from the cycle I was enduring—and I sure did get that escape. I left on August 12^th- I was actually weary and afraid to leave this time; afraid of the consequences of not working hard on myself (spiritually and physically). It is one of the 5 keys that a Reiki master must live by—and I neglected that one, along with not worrying. I did quite a bit of that this summer. Luckily, all of that is in the past though—so I am moving forward and only making occasional glances back to learn from my mistakes. I am currently in San Marcos la Laguna at Las Piramides Meditation Center. I have begun one of their courses, which includes: meditation, yoga, silence, fasting, metaphysics and esoteric lectures. I am enclosed in pure beauty. The location is incredible- the lake, along with the mountains are magic. I feel extremely blessed to be here and have this opportunity. With that said, yesterday I decided to list my intentions for choosing to regain my connection to the cosmos—

First, my greatest intention is to continue to awaken and fine-tune my energies with electromagnetic fields of the Earth in preparation of the great cosmic shift of the coming ages. I am here to awaken further and achieve a greater Oneness.

Second, my one immense problem is worry. Sometimes I feel like I get into a worry spiral. One ‘problem’ comes crashing into another, which then creates more ‘problems’. But honestly they are not really ‘problems’—and I should not classify them as so, they are just simple quests that I must overcome and learn from. I should take each one at a time and go from there. I am always so worried about everyone else and not myself-which therefore causes me more worry. It is time to let go of those insecurities—time to be honest and real always.

I was told a story today about the lake by a local shop keeper—and its magical abilities to manifest intentions. They say, people sit in front of the ocean and let out problems and set intent; however, the ocean just floats out then brings it back, where as in the lake when you sit and ask—it is perfectly still, and creates a mirror effect of your intentions. This can be both positive and negative though, if you go to the lake with positivity—it reflect back upon you, yet the same happens with negativity. And the lake has been known to make dreams come true. So its important to approach the lake with the right mind set and very set intentions.

I have had to ask the question where and what do I want when I return back to the states next month. I sat in front of my laptop—and these things came to mind without much thought:

I am most happy when I am part of a community. I love small town feel when everyone knows everyone -- you become a local. I love spending time with friends, and especially my brother and parents. I love yoga (hot yoga being my favorite), I love sharing meals with friends: either at a really good veg place or home prepared meals. I love sharing recipes and creating meals. I love shopping for organic, healthy items: especially when I discover something new at Whole Foods. I love being a health freak and I love love making my own fermented goods: Kimchi, sprouts and tempeh. I love engaging my mind. I love working in a laid-back environment, especially coffee shop vibes. I love riding my bike (especially along the beach) and I love going to bed early and waking up early and getting really good, quality sleep.

These things are important for my ultimate happiness. And I believe that if I continue with positive intent for all that I do these things will be granted to me with minimum effort or inversions. But what is given to me, I must give back.

I am going to be letting go of a lot in the next few weeks; releasing any worries and tension and rising closer towards the stars.