still water runs deep

on november 9th, 1988, my brother, albert thomas gonzalez was welcomed into this world. i became a big sister, and he became my everything. growing up i always wanted to teach him everything i knew. although he is much wiser (and has a MUCH older soul then mine) i still did my very best to make sure he understood what i had already learned in my 3 years more of experience in life. i would absolutely 100% no questions asked take a bullet for him. everyday i am more and more amazed by his personality, and how incredibly genius he is. him and i share the same sun sign, which also has made our relationship that much better since we completely understand each other. we know that we are both incredibly emotional people, we both know that we tend to hold grudges, are jealous, not knowing the "whole" story and details--especially not knowing the truth is difficult for us, and we both tend to be very secretive, dark people. its just who we are. we can not change that truth.

recently, my brother has been going through something deep, and it is so very difficult for me to sit and watch it take place. i have allowed his pain to take over my emotions. i am drained and exhausted, but i wont stop until he is happy. and i will do whatever it takes. each person in this world is very different from one another, and i understand we will not all agree, and things will not always work out as we wished they would, but the only thing i ask for is the truth. that is it, it should be so simple. if the people hurting my brother just communicated and told him how they felt then he would be able to release the pain and continue on this journey. today, on the way to work i told him we just needed to smile all day, and not let anything break the smile. it was a challenge, yet we both succeeded, and hopefully this positivity will continue till we are both back to our normal everyday happiness. from this moment on, i will not allow negativity to effect me, i only have one month left here with my brother & i want it to be nothing but positivity and enlightenment.