deleting

this blog. im sick of it already.

and i am sick of myspace, facebook, and twitter.

im ready to delete it all & just not worry about internet anymore.

blah.

summer plans

possible summer options:

• 4-6 weeks in salamanca spain studying spanish
• 4-12 weeks in thailand
• 4 weeks in india

or a combination of 2 or all 3 if i am lucky.

spain is very expensive, for 4 weeks at the university & accommodations i am looking at $1500 (not including food), flights round trip are about $1400. thailand would be very very cheap, $900 roundtrip, and less than $150 for up to 12 weeks accommodations, india is about the same. it is about $150 to fly from thailand to india, but about $450 to fly from either of those to spain. hmm.. i need to get a second job so i can accomplish all of this.

my goal date for leaving is: friday, may 14th, 2010.

time to save save save.

please grow quicker

i want long hair.

really really long hair.

patience is the only thing i can do.

exercise

i could exercise from morning till night if i had the time,

i love the endorphins i get,

i love to sweat,

i love not feeling guilty about eating.

i love my dance class (zumba), and spin class, ohh and yoga class. my 3 favorites at the moment, and i have gotten my mile times down over the past week in my runs. hopefully at this rate i will be ready for the march 28th triathlon that i am hoping to do this year. =)

end of the week sweet tooth

saturday evening

next 6 month wishlist

-pay off credit card (asap)

-pay off laptop bill (by may 1st)

-mexico (the month of march)

-costa rica (summer)

-tattoo (before summer)

-get car fixed (before summer)

-get accepted into grad school (asap)

-lose 17 pounds & 3% body fat (before summer)

2010 destinations

i am really looking forward to spending a month in mexico this spring, and then a month in costa rica this summer!! 46 days till mexico!! stoked. stoked. stoked.

blah

today was very blah, somedays i get very frustrated with myself--just the way i am and the decisions i make. most of my decisions i regret instantly, and dwell on them for a while. i cant take things back but sometimes i wish i could. i really just need to change my ways. be more honest with myself and others. if i did that then i wouldnt regret anything. its a new year so here is my chance to have a fresh start. i cant wait to get away and go to mexico in a couple weeks. i need the peace and quiet, i plan on spending the entire month of march not speaking to the outside world or putting anything toxic into my body. it will be a time of spiritual growth. i need that. the countdown begins: 47 days

somedays...

i spend all day dreaming of my wedding day with him.

i usually am against the system, but sometimes i can be extra girlie & have my moments.

last minute decision

i usually never wait till the last minute for anything. i usually have things done way before deadline, but i just decided i wanted to apply to CSULB for grad school so now its a rush since the deadline is January 30th, ahhh.

a new year, a new me

its so strange to me that it is 2010. at one point during 2009 i remember wishing 2009 would just be over, but i think that was only because i was so excited all year about my peru trip and i just wanted to be there. looking back on the year all i can do is smile. 2009 was absolutely perfect in every way. i stayed completely stress free all year and just enjoyed my surroundings. i was able to travel to chicago more than once, new orleans, memphis, all multiple times. i also got to go up to portland, seattle, oahu, and down to destin, florida. i also got to spend 2 months in peru! life was really really good for me. although i have enjoyed all the traveling i do miss family and friends in california. i had many days during 2009 that i just wanted to get in my car and drive home. i learned a lot about myself this year and i do think 2010 is going to be just as amazing. i already started the year off in california with all my family and friends. and im getting ready to book my next trip to mexico, and i am filing out applications to grad school. still not really sure where i want to go but i will figure it out soon enough. no stress. this year i really want to spend less money on new shit, and eating out and partying. i want to save money for trips & i want to work out more and treat my body better. 2009 was pretty spontaneous, so 2010 should be just as exciting!! im looking forward to another great year.

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first blog of 2010.

california was amazing.

i will write more in the morning.

im a sleepyhead right now.

goodnight world.

new years eve!!

2009- is going to be the best night of my life.

i can feel it.

i have great vibrations being sent to me.

jealousy

Jealousy is a familiar experience in human relationships. It has been observed in infants five months old and older.^[1][2][3][4] Some claim that jealousy is seen in every culture;^[5][6][7] however, others claim jealousy is a culture-specific phenomenon.^[8]

Jealousy as an emotion or the impact of jealousy has been a theme of many novels, songs, poems, films and other artistic works. It has also been a topic of interest for scientists, artists, and theologians. Psychologists have proposed several models of the processes underlying jealousy and have identified factors that result in jealousy. Sociologists have demonstrated that cultural beliefs and values play an important role in determining what triggers jealousy and what constitutes socially acceptable expressions of jealousy. Biologists have identified factors that may unconsciously influence the expression of jealousy. Artists have explored the theme of jealousy in photographs, paintings, movies, songs, plays, poems, and books. Theologians have offered religious views of jealousy based on the scriptures of their respective faiths.

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i want a fairy tale wedding in the forest toooo.

feliz navidad

it is thirty minutes till christmas day 2009.

one week till the new year.

for the longest time i felt like 2009 was never going to end, and now i feel like it went by so quickly. i can not believe it is already going to be 2010. so strange, last year (at this time) i was working at starbucks in long beach, living with my dad in westminster, and spending christmas eve with marcel's family, eating tofurky and waiting to open presents at midnight, last christmas i got some really special gifts from marcel, my paint easel, and a full set of acrylic paints. it was such a great surprise, this year, i didnt ask for anything besides a gym membership which my mom helped me get earlier this week, but thats about it, im not really a big fan of christmas, so i kinda just want it to be over. im glad i have a smaller family this year, just mom and brother, rather than all the people, i get quite overwhelmed by that. im really looking forward to spending christmas day/weekend in memphis, i like it there. kinda reminds me of long beach. well, im off to bed, when i wake it will be christmas. good night.

xmas eve's eve

can christmas just be over already? please.

happpy birthday mama!

today is my mama's birthday!!

i hope she is having an amazing day because she truly deserves happiness. she is a very beautiful person!!

love you mom!