what is love telling me to do right now?

Mixed emotion.


Being human is so weird. Too many emotions, too much thinking—

& over‐analyzing e v e r y t h i n g.

I set an intention and it is rapidly manifesting right before my eyes. And now I am

pushing back and asking the Universe to slow down. But how is that possible when

time is just an illusion? How can I ask for something and then push it away at the

very same moment? I don’t want to be in love, not here, not now. But it is

happening. Or maybe it isn’t? Maybe it’s an illusion. Maybe I am just afraid. Love

does a lot of silly things—my heart flutters quickly, but breath becomes more

difficult for me to catch, my solar plexus twists and turns in knots, and my feet, oh

my, my feet float rather than walk.

This isn’t supposed to happen though, not now. And so many opportunities

manifesting, so many options to not leave. But I have to leave‐I need to be

courageous right now. I need to go out & radiate my essence. This is what I am here

to do—not let my little silly human emotions get in the way. I need to control these

emotions. Why did I wake up in tears this morning? And not painful or sad tears, just

tears—being alive tears. Ugh, this is all so strange to me, and I feel as if it is allwrong.

This shouldn’t be happening. Or should it?

What is love telling me to do right now?

a plan! a plan!

I cannot believe it—a plan, at last!

It is not so much that I have been indecisive; it has been more about patience and waiting for the Universe to point me in the correct direction. I was clear about my intentions, just not sure where and when to begin. Nevertheless, it has been presented to me and I couldn’t be more excited than I am. More or less, I knew I wanted to go to Latin America and further my evolution with the use of healing plants. I knew the best place to learn and grow would be Peru, yet I also had this pull towards Guatemala. So I was unsure which was best for me at this time. After an amazing discussion with my good friend David, we came up with a brilliant plan. And it goes something like this: First, I will fly into Lima the 25th of August and
spend time in the jungle working with shamans and healing plants (so thrilled!) and then as soon as rainy season starts—move North. We are going to travel together via bus and/or train across the country and through Ecuador and Colombia, eventually settling at permaculture farm either off the coast of Panama or Nicaragua. We have made this decision, in accordance to the great shift at the end of the year. It is important to both of us that we are somewhere off the grid, fully self-sufficient in case any catastrophe, preferably on an island (since they are already self-sufficient in other ways). We are both also looking forward to spending our birthdays (mine the 18th of November, his the 1st of December) somewhere with beautiful people on the same frequency as us. As I type this out I am becoming overjoyed with life—

I am so blessed with so many gorgeous people in my life--and this trip, wow! Eventually by the beginning of next year I will continue to work my way North, making stops in both Guatemala and Mexico, and lastly, returning home by early February.

A plan!! An amazing plan!...now I just have to figure out which permaculture farm I would like to spend a chunk of my time at, and where I want to be for the great shift at the Winter Solstice. Once again, I will be patient and all will be shown to me with time.

Love & Light Brothers & Sisters. Pure Love. xo

how cool is that?

As I was holding downward facing dog, I glanced to my left and saw the most beautiful

green leafy plant, so free and beautiful—just feeding off the sun’s energy, much like

myself. In that moment, I was reminded that we are all One. We are all cohabitating

this Earth, however the plants on the planet just give and give and give. How beautiful

is that? They are so gracious; their very being keeps us humans radiant and healthy.

Ohhhhh my goosh, we are so lucky.

All this flourished in my mind as I held the position. And even more came to mind as I

shifted my weight into upward facing dog: just how cool my life is. Some days I just

cannot believe how blessed I am. I have the most beautiful family and friends, and

everyday I continue to meet new people and make new wonderful friends. I have an

abundance of opportunities in my life. This can cause me anxiety at times, but then I

realize what is causing the anxiety I have to laugh at myself: I am freaking out because I

cannot decide if I want to go to Guatemala first, then Peru. Or if I want to go straight to

Peru… and which month I want to go? Seriously? This is my problem at the moment.

This is what is causing me anxiety?

How am I able to keep going and going...? Why has the Universe been so gracious to

me? She has given me everything I need to continue my mission. I have never gone

without anything. It is so incredible. With all these gifts I must do my best to give back

to her. I must continue on the mission she has sent me here for, continue to be kind and

respectful to her and all of my brothers and sisters. Continue shining my Light—and

helping others reach their destiny as well—this will make her proud.